So being stuck in the house for three days has really got me thinking;; and i have to say.. im over this kid. and i currently like NO ONE =] and i couldnt be happier. so ive written a couple quotes cause ive had the time so here they are...
oh and if you dont COMMENT AND SUBSCRIBE
more... im just gonna stop updating.

For the first time i looked at your picture..
and realized that im done waiting around
for something that probably wont happen
ever again.
and i have to say.. im happy about it.

And ive come to realize that
Waiting around for you
is just a waste of my time.

So when you become unhappy with her
And you realize shes a total bitch to you;;
DONT come back to me.
'Cause i wont be there waiting
for you anymore.

I cant say im happy about being single...
but i know that when the right guy comes along
There will be no guy stopping me from him.

'Cause ive learned to forget the people
who dont give a dam about you
and start worrying about yourself.
and the people who care about you.

As soon as this new guy comes into my life..
im going to do exactly what you did to me.
Dangle him right infront of your face
and make you wish you were him =]

My sky didnt collapse when my thoughts
didnt revolve around you.
so i guess you can say i never
really needed you in my life.

So im single with no intentions of looking for a guy.
For once im going to let him find me =]

So the truth is.. people really do change over time.
Im a prime example of this.
Change isnt always for the bad..
it can be for the good.

So im not going to be there for you anymore.
Im not going to let you run back to me everytime
You fight with your girl.
Shes your problem.
And im not some kind of rebound.

Ive always tried to please everyone but myself.
and in the end;; ive come to realize that
doing that puts me in an even worse position.
So for once im going to do something for myself.
And thats going to be to get the fuck over you.
Stop thinking about you.
Stop talking to you.
Stop everything that has to do with you.
and so far;; its worked pretty damn well =]

The people who can honestly say they know who their TRUE friends are...
i ENVY you.
'cause i wish i knew who my true friends are.

yeah so thats it for right now.

more to come soon =]

COMMENT !!! 

Sorry only two quotes right now... one written by me the other is in a song.
enjoy =]

So tell me what you think about;;
Being open;;
About being honest with yourself*

    - Cartel

Like Razors they Cut through her heart;;
The memories are killing her.

this song relates to me sooooooooo muchh.

[ only when it says girl it should say guy and when it says boy it should say girl lol ]

"Let Go"

        - Ne-yo

I know its past tense
Its been a minute since
We were a couple
And, walking and holding hands
Kisses and I love yous
Doing what lovers do
Baby
But baby that was then
Cause now we don't
Talk no more
You gotta a new man
And, it shouldn't bother me
But girl its driving me, crazy
And everybody says
Boy why don't you just leave it alone
But I don't think I can

[Chorus]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know)

I'm holdin' on to hope
I know its a foolish thought
Think that someday she might come back
Wish on it all the time
Knowin' it never may happen
But see I'm not a fool
Cause no we don't
Talk no more
You gotta new man
But, I'm gonna keep it safe
I've got the patience
That some lack...
But everybody says
Boy why don't you just leave it alone
But I don't think I can

[Chorus]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know)

[Interlude]
I don't think I can let you go
I can't let you go
No....
I don't think that I can let you go
Let go...
And everybody says...
And I don't think I can...

[Chorus (With Ad-Libs)]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know)

soooo sorry i havent updated ina while... major stress and heartbreak.. but i got some inspiration to write again =]

ill try to update moree. i promisee <33

No matter what i do;;
i just CANNOT get over you.
TRUST ME;; i've tried
and theres always something
just pulling me back to you.
im not sure if its love...
but im sure it could be.

So are you happy with her ?
are you "really" happy ?
cause im telling you..
if your not;;
i know i could make you happier.

i cant help but think about all the mistakes
that i've ever made.
and the biggest mistake i can ever think of;;
was losing you.

i was the crappiest girlfriend ever.
i know i was;; i messed up really bad.
but i was young and inexperienced
and you expected so much out of me.
and im sorry;; but i want you to know
if i could;;i would go back and change
the way i treated you and how i acted.
The only thing i would N E V E R change
was you and me ever being a couple.

i never thought i would miss you this much.
it was a relationship that i messed up.
and after a year... i would do ANYTHING
to have you back;;
and for you to give me a second chance.

The school years separated us.
and now that were being
brought back together;;
are thing gonna change?
will we be a couple again?

i wont be one of those teenagers
who swear they know what love is
when they really have no clue
but i will say this;;
im pretty damn sure i came close to it.

the longer you and her are a couple.
the longer my death sentence seems to be.
everyday your with her is killing me.
slowly.. but its killing me.

i NEED to know;; do you feel the way i do?
do you wish we could go back and give
our love another chance ? please say you do.

im not a slut. and im not easy.
but your the ONLY guy i EVER
considered losing it to.
i hope you know that.

its been a long time since we've seen each other.
but i bet once were together;; everything
will feel the same;; maybe even better ?

do you really love "her" ?
or are you using her so she'll
give you what i wont ?

ive tried to get over you.
i really have. but every new guy
im with;; i always compare him
to you. and if he doesnt compare..
i get rid of him.
pretty pathetic isnt it ?

sorry i got ALOT moree.. but im tiredd. just got home from pirates of the carribean 2 <333 great fucking movie. i love those stupid disney moviess ! lol

oh and uhm i "love" this kidd.. alot;; alot. we use to go out... but we got split up [he was in highschool and i was still in middleschool... 1 year difference] we were about to go out the summer before we "split" up.. but one thing lead to another and he kinda scared me.. and we ended up not going out... but now he's taken. and i barley talk to him anymore. but i still like "love" the kid.. wtf do i do ?!!? helppp !  </333 pleaseee. thankss.